So this time around it's a little less update, and a little more food for thought.
Well, to give a little background, thanks to a new friend of mine ;p, I've started writing again. And it went a little something like this...
Well, I find myself becoming a more spiritual individual, and I absolutely love it! I have found a new church that I love too! It gives me this sense of understanding of the LORD I never obtained before. In the past few months, I feel that I have increased my relationship with HIM in ways I have never known before.
I began reading this book of daily readings my mom gave both me and my sister. It's a daily devotions book. I had to do a bit of catching up over the past few days. The first reading I read tonight was about "The Courage to Say 'NO'". This i can relate to! I have a problem saying no sometimes; actually most of the time. The grass always seems to look greener on the other side, or I'm always afraid of hurting someone's feelings if I say "no". This reading, as I understood it, said that the grass only looks greener on the other side because you don't see the bigger picture; you're forgetting to even look at your own side. We sometimes forget what we already have or we forget how great what we already have is. Or, hurting someones feelings... I've come to learn that if you say "no" to someone who truly cares for you, then they'll understand and no feelings will be hurt. I've also learned that you can't please everyone. Plus, why would you want to? If you focus on pleasing everyone else, I think eventually, you will find that you're are forgetting to please someone with the utmoust importance, YOURSELF!
The second reading I read tonight is titles, "what the Devil Means for Harm, GOD will use for Good". A passage reads, "it is amazing how many times Satan will set a trap for us, meaning it for our harm and destruction. But when GOD gets involved, HE takes that thing that Satan meant to use to destroy us and turns it so that it actually works for our good instead," It goes along with "GOD is good, all the time!" If evil should cross your path, put it in HIS hands; take it to the LORD, and HE wil find the light and reveal the good to you. So, when times are hard, and when all seems to be bad and getting worse, ask for HIS guidance because HE can do no evil! And remember, "I can do everything through HIM who gives me strength." PHILIPPIANS 4:13 I have to continuously remind myself that through these hardships and rough patches Satan has placed in our path will come only good and prosperity if put in HIS hands.
Today's reading is about "The Spirit of Peace". The last paragraph of this reading says,
"When we do have to make hard decisions or solve complicated problems or onfront difficult people, the HOLY SPIRIT will decide the proper time and approach. HE will give us the right words to say. Until then, we don't need to bother ourselves with it. If we will listen to what the LORD is telling us here in this passage, not only will we have more peace, but we will enjoy more success. Because when we do have to speak, what comes out of our mouth will be spiritual wisdom from GOD and not something that we have come up with our of our own carnal mind."
The passage basically describes what I have to do from here on out. I have such a hard time making decisions and I ask to many 'what if's and thing too much on what "could have been". If what is meant to be has passed, HE will find a way for it to cross our paths again. We need not, I need not think too hard about things. I should put my mind to peace and let HIM work through me. This is a tough tas because I can become very impatient. But, like the passage says, "we need not bother ourselves...if we listen to what the LORD is telling us... not only will we have more peace, but we will enjoy more success". So basically, SHUT UP KAT AND LISTEN!
Thank you EP for encouraging me to start writing again! :)
The reason I share this with y'all (and know, I hardly EVER share my journal entries) is because those passages hit home so hard. It's ridiculous how close those issues are to me.
But here's another question i want to throw out there: Is it truly possible to be TOO nice?
I ask that because I feel like I am sometimes, actually a lot of the time. And, when I feel like my sincerity and selflessness has been taken advantage of, I do a complete 180 and go into my "I hate the world" mentality. And that's what I feel right now. Here's the thing, I'm underpaid and overqualified. I jump through hoops and run a freaking circus in order to get the job at hand done. I do everything i possibly can to complete the task/favor. I expend all of my resources necessary to "get the job done". And after all of that, I feel like i get nothing in return. I bust my ass off here and the one time i need something in return, i get a half ass effort and get shoved to the side.
Really though!?! Did I really deserve this? What did I do? Is there something wrong? Please tell me if there is. I just don't understand how bad things happen to relatively good people. Now, don't get me wrong, I don't think i'm an angel or anything and I'm far from perfect, but I feel that i deserve a little something once in a while. Now, i don't ask for much and i'm a pretty self serving person, but I get nothing when i really need it. So eff the world! Eff the job! Eff the company. Eff with me and I'll eff with you too! Now, I know that's not the right mentality, especially after all that spiritual things I said above but I just need to vent/get this off my chest.
So now that I've accomplished that, yes, i'm trying to put this in HIS hands. He will find a way! I mean, afterall I just wanted this small favor so I can do something for my son at his school for his birthday. It's not for selfish reasons. I've got to put my mind at peace and let HIM take care of this. woo saaaah Kat, wooo saaahhhh.
Anyway, like i briefly mentioned above, this Saturday is TJ's second birthday! can you believe it!?! I mean, where did the time go!?!? I definitely didn't see two years go by. WOW! The birthday update is soon to follow!
Until next time :)
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Update 101
So i realize i'm doing so well with this weekly post thing.. It's been less than a month, so we're getting better. Baby steps...
Well first and foremost... I have a few birthday wishes to throw out there
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY! 55 years young! Yesterday was my cousin Linnel's birthday!
Yesterday was my cousin Linnel's birthday! woo hoo 20 years old!!! no longer a teen. Congrats Nellie! Yesterday was also my late grandma's birthday! Happy birthday Lola! We miss you so much! 
Yesterday was also my late grandma's birthday! Happy birthday Lola! We miss you so much!
AND!
Tomorrow is my aunt's birthday! Happy birthday Tita Belle! 54 years young!
and!
Happy birthday ate Abie! we miss you here in the states!
Moving on to other news, FOOTBALL SEASON HAS STARTED!!!
It's the best time of the year!
check out this video too. this guy knowshon Moreno from the GA Bulldogs...
Well first and foremost... I have a few birthday wishes to throw out there
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY! 55 years young! Yesterday was my cousin Linnel's birthday!
Yesterday was my cousin Linnel's birthday! woo hoo 20 years old!!! no longer a teen. Congrats Nellie! Yesterday was also my late grandma's birthday! Happy birthday Lola! We miss you so much! 
Yesterday was also my late grandma's birthday! Happy birthday Lola! We miss you so much!
AND!
Tomorrow is my aunt's birthday! Happy birthday Tita Belle! 54 years young!
and!
Happy birthday ate Abie! we miss you here in the states!
Moving on to other news, FOOTBALL SEASON HAS STARTED!!!
It's the best time of the year!
check out this video too. this guy knowshon Moreno from the GA Bulldogs...
Thursday, August 21, 2008
In the past few weeks....
-The 2008 Beijing Olympics started! and so far...
The US Women Gymnastics got Silver
Nastia Leukin won all around Gold. First US woman to do so since
Mary Lou Rettin
Shawn Johnson won a number of silver medals, but finished things off with
a gold
The US Men's Gymnastics team (the team many doubted would medal) won Bronze
Michael Phelps broke 7 world records (I think)
got 8 gold medals
beat the trash talking Frenchies and rubbed in their face
Misty May-Treanor and Kerri Welsh won the Gold medal two straight Olympics in a row
and didn't drop a single set to anyone!
And the "Redeem Team" is kicking everyone's ass!
Man, I love the Olympics!
- TJ turned 22 Months! I can't believe he's that old already. Only 2 more months until he turns two! RIDICIULOUS!
- My Tita Alou (the third sister in my mom's family) came to visit... and left already (yesterday).
- Jessica started volleyball practice at PCC.
- I started working out again!! In efforts to look like this again.
- Katelin, Megan and I had our first Girl's night out in a very VERY long time... we need to do that more often, by the way!
(thanks for the pic Kate)
- We got down to the final two teams of ABDC (America's Best Dance Crew)
And the Finale is TONIGHT! woo hoo! It's going to be so good!
- And my favorite show (well one of my favorites) season premier was this week. Yes folks, the Hills is back!
I hate to love this show. I am truly addicted! It's terrible. But what can i say, I love the Hills! and this season is going to be so good. And i thought I liked Lo, but after the first episode, I could so slap her! Anyway, more to come.
- And the best part is more of my favs have their season premiers coming up too.
We've got...
~America's Next Top Model
~Grey's Anatomy
~Greek
and the list goes on and on! So excited!
It's gonna be a good fall! I can feel it already :)
And Lastly... HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEO! You're 29 today you old fart!
The US Women Gymnastics got Silver
Nastia Leukin won all around Gold. First US woman to do so since
Mary Lou Rettin
Shawn Johnson won a number of silver medals, but finished things off with
a gold
The US Men's Gymnastics team (the team many doubted would medal) won Bronze
Michael Phelps broke 7 world records (I think)
got 8 gold medals
beat the trash talking Frenchies and rubbed in their face
Misty May-Treanor and Kerri Welsh won the Gold medal two straight Olympics in a row
and didn't drop a single set to anyone!
And the "Redeem Team" is kicking everyone's ass!
Man, I love the Olympics!
- TJ turned 22 Months! I can't believe he's that old already. Only 2 more months until he turns two! RIDICIULOUS!
- My Tita Alou (the third sister in my mom's family) came to visit... and left already (yesterday).
- Jessica started volleyball practice at PCC.
- I started working out again!! In efforts to look like this again.
- Katelin, Megan and I had our first Girl's night out in a very VERY long time... we need to do that more often, by the way!
(thanks for the pic Kate)- We got down to the final two teams of ABDC (America's Best Dance Crew)
And the Finale is TONIGHT! woo hoo! It's going to be so good!
- And my favorite show (well one of my favorites) season premier was this week. Yes folks, the Hills is back!
I hate to love this show. I am truly addicted! It's terrible. But what can i say, I love the Hills! and this season is going to be so good. And i thought I liked Lo, but after the first episode, I could so slap her! Anyway, more to come.- And the best part is more of my favs have their season premiers coming up too.
We've got...
~America's Next Top Model
~Grey's Anatomy
~Greek
and the list goes on and on! So excited!
It's gonna be a good fall! I can feel it already :)
And Lastly... HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEO! You're 29 today you old fart!
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
In the Past week I have....
Sad/Bad news:
- Broke my favorite pair of pumps. Steve Madden knotted peep-toe pump, black
well, they didn't exactly break, the rubber on the bottom of the pump fell off. sigh. have to get them fixed now.
- BofA gyped me a couple hundred of bucks because of some stupid new policy. Eff them! Don't they know i have a kid i have to put in day care... geez!
- An earthquake (5.8) hit LA. First major quake of that magnitude to hit LA since the Northridge earthquake in '94. Either way, for a long time.
- My baby
was sick this weekend.
First had really bad diaper rash (thanks for taking care of that daycare... :-/).
Then a fever the next day.
Not good. He missed out on a great day at the AVP Tour in Long Beach too.
- My mom stopped talking to me a lot after Friday.... for reasons mentioned below.
- One of my favorite dance crews were eliminated from America's Best Dance Crew. American, you're slacking on the votes man! Seriously.. Supreme Soul did not deserve to go home! Honestly! Look at them! They're off the chain!
Good/Happy Stuff:
- Thursday I got my tattoo.. FINALLY!
It hurt like a bitch and took forever.. but was well worth it! It started to hurt the most after the third hour. It took three hours and twenty minutes. That's not including the almost two hours it took for the artist to sketch it out. But you have to agree, it looks damn good!
So what if I'm itching like mad .. it still looks good! LOL!
And this is the reason my mom isn't talking to me much anymore.... just bitching. and we won't go into that either.
- I went to the AVP Tour in Long Beach this weekend. It was off the freaking chain! And I got to meet my idols. These are the people i dream to be in a few years. I mean, look at these people.
The #1 Team in the world. Kerri Walsh and Misty Mae-Treanor
I even got a picture with her.. Shaking the whole time.
Davis and Triple J
And I got a picture with Phil Dahlhouser too. Oh em geeeee!
- Cousin just turned 22!! Happy Birthday Be!
- My Tita Alou came in town from the Philippines! Woo hoo!
- I get paid tomorrow! Woo hoo... (but a nice chunk is already gone bc of BofA..but we're talking about happy things here)
- Super Cr3w and SoReal Cru are still in ABDC
And folks, that was my week in a nutshell. Until next time!
- Broke my favorite pair of pumps. Steve Madden knotted peep-toe pump, black
well, they didn't exactly break, the rubber on the bottom of the pump fell off. sigh. have to get them fixed now.
- BofA gyped me a couple hundred of bucks because of some stupid new policy. Eff them! Don't they know i have a kid i have to put in day care... geez!
- An earthquake (5.8) hit LA. First major quake of that magnitude to hit LA since the Northridge earthquake in '94. Either way, for a long time.
- My baby
was sick this weekend. First had really bad diaper rash (thanks for taking care of that daycare... :-/).
Then a fever the next day.
Not good. He missed out on a great day at the AVP Tour in Long Beach too.
- My mom stopped talking to me a lot after Friday.... for reasons mentioned below.
- One of my favorite dance crews were eliminated from America's Best Dance Crew. American, you're slacking on the votes man! Seriously.. Supreme Soul did not deserve to go home! Honestly! Look at them! They're off the chain!
Good/Happy Stuff:
- Thursday I got my tattoo.. FINALLY!
It hurt like a bitch and took forever.. but was well worth it! It started to hurt the most after the third hour. It took three hours and twenty minutes. That's not including the almost two hours it took for the artist to sketch it out. But you have to agree, it looks damn good!So what if I'm itching like mad .. it still looks good! LOL!
And this is the reason my mom isn't talking to me much anymore.... just bitching. and we won't go into that either.
- I went to the AVP Tour in Long Beach this weekend. It was off the freaking chain! And I got to meet my idols. These are the people i dream to be in a few years. I mean, look at these people.
Kerri Walsh. Only the #1 girl in the world.
The #1 Team in the world. Kerri Walsh and Misty Mae-Treanor
I even got a picture with her.. Shaking the whole time.
Davis and Triple J
And I got a picture with Phil Dahlhouser too. Oh em geeeee!
- Cousin just turned 22!! Happy Birthday Be!
- My Tita Alou came in town from the Philippines! Woo hoo!- I get paid tomorrow! Woo hoo... (but a nice chunk is already gone bc of BofA..but we're talking about happy things here)
- Super Cr3w and SoReal Cru are still in ABDC
And folks, that was my week in a nutshell. Until next time!
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
A Little bit of Media
So usually I blog about my life and all, but this one is going to be a little Katelin inspired. So there are a few shows that I really watch in the summer. This summer it's America's Best Dance Crew, Jon & Kate Plus 8, and Legally Blonde The Musical: The Search for the next Elle Woods. Now, I've got to admit, I didn't see the whole season. But I saw enough to find a favorite. And my favorite actually won! Check her out! The next Elle Woods is Bailey Hanks!
Do you see why I love this show so much!!?! I mean I absolutely love the movie, why wouldn't I love the musical too!? If I could, I would go to NYC just to see her on Broadway. Unfortunately, I don't or else I literally would've been there in a heartbeat. Oh well. And then, after they showed the finale of this show, MTV had to show this....
I mean, why is it going to be so good! I'm so addicted to this show. I'm not sure why either!?! It's just dumb drama... but at least it's not my dumb drama! But yeah, i think the thing that makes this trailer so good is the mascara tear at the very end. Nice touch. But seriously! I'm so looking forward August 18th at 10pm. Sad, but true. Don't hate! You love the drama too!
Um, in other news, I have pictures from this weekend and a video of TJ, but I haven't uploaded them yet. So those are to come very soon. Until then....holler :p
Do you see why I love this show so much!!?! I mean I absolutely love the movie, why wouldn't I love the musical too!? If I could, I would go to NYC just to see her on Broadway. Unfortunately, I don't or else I literally would've been there in a heartbeat. Oh well. And then, after they showed the finale of this show, MTV had to show this....
I mean, why is it going to be so good! I'm so addicted to this show. I'm not sure why either!?! It's just dumb drama... but at least it's not my dumb drama! But yeah, i think the thing that makes this trailer so good is the mascara tear at the very end. Nice touch. But seriously! I'm so looking forward August 18th at 10pm. Sad, but true. Don't hate! You love the drama too!
Um, in other news, I have pictures from this weekend and a video of TJ, but I haven't uploaded them yet. So those are to come very soon. Until then....holler :p
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